LOL I really am not getting this Blog deal?

I don't know how to do this blogging thing but I want to give it a try! I need to write me thoughts down somewhere even if they are just for myself!! It is kind of like journaling but with the possibility of others being bored with my not so exciting life. I am in my new fuzzy soft PJs and sitting on my bed with my laptop on my lap and watching the football game at the same time as I write? Hum Wonder why my writing is so scattered? I am happy that Christmas is past and we have another year before it hits again. I do like Christmas day it is the 3 months before it when I am thinking about where am I going to get the money to buy the gifts for all the family members that I love so much! This year I suggested to everyone that we just focus on the little children and us big kids should just be happy with that and of course just as I do every year I end up buying something for everyone. I crochet so I of course give something crocheted to those that I know love my work. This year it was the fingerless gloves which I have always called wristlets until they started calling little purses with a strap for the wrist , wristlets. This makes it confusing so I went with the fingerless gloves and everyone seemed to understand this. I should have listened to my daughter and my best friend to list these a long time ago. I could kick myself!!!! I did see a lot of intricate styles of wristlets out there but my soft, fluffy, warm and colorful ones went really well. I had buy one for $19.99 and get the second pair for half price. This went very well and of course then I had to offer to wrap for people who were sending gifts to loved ones that lived out of State. IT started with offering a young man's mother's birthday present in which he chose a black cloche with black flower and black ribbon. Hope she likes black as much as I do? He was so thrilled with me wrapping his gift to his mom that it gave me a real sense of joy!! I am a people pleaser and that is one thing that is important to me. It is good and it is bad. On Etsy, where I sell my crocheted items, I always want to know if my customers are happy with their purchase? I cannot stand it to wonder if it fit them or they really weren't happy with the way it turned out when they tried the hat on or the fingerless gloves. I work so hard to get the package out the next day and usually get whatever they order out to them within 4 days at the most till they get it at their home. That has made a real impression on a lot of my customers. I cannot believe it when I see other people offering 2 to 3 weeks to make someone a hat or whatever? I don't know if I ever want to be so busy that it takes me 3 weeks to get out my work? I guess my paypal accoun t would be nice and big and that I could like for sure!!! I then decided to offer wrapping to anyone sending a present out of state for Christmas. I also have been including a cuff (bracelet) as a thank you for buying from my online shop. It is a surprise and I am always happy to know that they will be surprised when I am wrapping up the hat in tissue paper and tucking the cuff inside! LOL I had a wonderful lady write a lot on her beautiful blog about my quick turn around and she ordered a bunch of things for her sister and neice in Wisconsin and more for herself too!! Her blog is so beautiful that it makes me feel lacking in this one? There is snow falling over her words, and music playing softly as I read and look over her Blog and I am intimidated but if I don't start somewhere then I will never learn how to do this. I am a big talker and it extends to my writing. I just let the words flow out of my mouth onto the paper without any regard for whether it is in paragraphs, grammat or even spelling. People usually don't mind my letters but this is a bit different. IF you don't like what I have to say then you don't need to read it and I won't be hurt.

I may get into what I hope for this year! I am done with resolutions that never happen for me. I resolve to do something like working out every day and it lasts for a bit but then I miss a day or two and I get down on myself so I figure I won't make any this year. This doesn't mean that I plan to do nothing with my life. I want to share my life with all the people that I love and that love me too! I love to talk to the lonely people in the world. The ones that are too young to have earned any respect yet and the ones that are very old and are lonely too. I have always loved the elderly because they have a child like quality that I find so sweet!! They are just so appreciative of your time and your interest in what they have to say. My grandchildren are so wonderful and so sweet that I am never tired of seeing their eyes light up as they see me coming. I can still picture them last year when I came driving up to their house on a sunny day and there they both were sitting on the grass at the end of the driveway waiting for me, Oma. I don't even have my car door open and they are right there. I think it must be a little bit like what happens to a celebrity when they are greeted with cheers but I wouldn't want any other audience than those 2 beaming little faces looking into my face. I feel young when I am with my grandchildren. I will tell you about them first. The oldest one is Ella and she turned 7 in September. Ella is a doll and so sweet and innocent!!! She has my sense of humor and we can laugh and laugh over the littlest of things. I love how she has a connection with me where I can look into her eyes and see the laughter ready to bubble out. I love to hear her laugh! When she was born she had a hole in her heart and we didn't know about it until she was about 4 years old!! It is so horrible to think about how that little sweet girl was so good and so easy to please when little did her mom realize that she was having bathroom accidents because she was retaining water due to the heart. The hole was apparently leaking blood a lot and the poor little thing didn't even have the ability to tell us something was wrong nor would she know what it was to feel normal. I will never forget the sight of her sitting in the hospital bed in her purple nightie with her Elmo in her arms. I laugh when I tell her now with Elmo being 7 years old and her sleeping with him it has caused him to need some sewing up if you know what I mean. I tell Ella that Elmo needs a little surgery to get him fixed up and she laughs and laughs about this. Ella was playing in the toy room the 2nd day after her open heart surgery but the wounds to her spirit were much harder to heal. Ella had such a panic where she had been fearless prior to the surgery. They had her on a pain block, morphine and then within hours they went to plain tylenol. I watched as they attempted to remove the tubes and the panic she would get in her eyes when the nurse would come over to her to check her out. She didn't want to be touched and was afraid that it would really hurt. I was very upset because I asked for pain meds for her around noon and the nurse went and got the morphine for her. This really helped her out a lot and I took her for a little walk in the wheel chair around the hospital. What I didn't know was that they were moving her out of the intensive care unit to another room and they did this around 6:00. It had been 6 hours since she had any pain medication at all and I will never forget what happened when they told her to walk over to the bed in the room. As soon as her little feet hit the floor she was on her tip toes and crying with agony at every step. It makes me cry to think about it still. Why wouldn't the nurse have known to give her pain medication when you have had your ribs spread open less than 12 hours before that she would need it to walk to another bedroom? That summer Ella had panic when she would try to swim, or do anything that had any chance of being hurt and I think it was because she never expected the level of pain that she felt with the surgery. Most children never experience such a pain and her faith in what would hurt and what wouldn't was destroyed. Everything that potentially could cause her to have pain threw her into a panic attack!! Ella is so much like I am in personality. She is on the shy side and she is very loving with a good sense of humor and very easily pleased. Thank God that time has healed most of the memory of this surgery. It was good that it happened when she was so young. Ella asked me recently what that scar was from on her chest and would it go away? Jaden is my grandson and he is 5 years old and totally different from his sister. Jaden is so outgoing and carefree. Jaden talks and talks about everything and he is very intelligent. When he was only 3 years old he could tell me that I was drinking water that I bought from Hyvee, a grocery store around here. I couldn't believe that he knew what that tiny word on the bottle was just by going to the grocery store and seeing it everywhere on items, the signs etc. When I bought him a Cars (the movie) pair of goggles he asked me at the pool with his loud voice "Oma where did you get these goggles? Walgreens?" I laughed so much because he always has to mention where he has purchased everything. He remembers things so well!! Jaden went through a lot of health issues as well but more when he was born. The ob/gyn wouldn't admitt my daughter and she knew that she was going into labor but the doctor said he wasn't going to be there at the hospital all night long. Little did the doctor know, even though when he had listened to the heartbeat of the baby at the check up, that the umbilical chord was wrapped around Jaden's neck. He did send my daughter out of the hospital to his own office to have the ultrasound taken because he made more money on it. My daughter ended up in the hospital around 4 in the morning and he was born fairly quickly but because the chord was wrapped around his neck for so long he had real problems and had to be helicoptered off to the big hospital;'s prenatal intensive care for 3 weeks. To this day he has a fear of eating foods and he is real thin. He has digestive issues and seems to remember that he cried for 6 months every time he would drink a bottle of formula he got terrible cramps. Anything that is white like bread, cake, ice cream cake, potatoes and a lot more foods he is to this day afraid to eat and when he tried to force himself to take some bites it isn't long before he is gagging. It is so sad when you see a child trying his best to eat to please us and then he gaggs. I right away tell him he did a good job trying and tell him he is a good boy for trying. I am very worried about why this is still a problem for him at 5 years old? Jaden is very thin for his age. He was a perfect weight but he has lost a lot of weight this year even though he is growing like he should in the height and weight? My daughter has had himt o many specialists and they have no answers for her regarding his problems. I think my daughter will need to take him again to a gastro doctor for a scope so that they can look inside to see why he gets such stomach pain when he eats and why it goes right through him in diarehea. I am a member of a group that is all about allergies to foods and I am horrified at what this ocuntry allows big business to do withour food. We are the only country that Kraft can use Coal Tar based food coloring on the Mac and Cheese to give it the nice yellow look but it is known that this actually turns off some of the digestive enzymes and causes hyperactivity and attention Defecit disorder. Kraft makes the mac and cheese for Europe and Canada in a whole different formula where it isn't that brilliant yellow color that we have here. It is a lighter color by far. They just allowed these food colorings to be used since 1994. The rate of food allergies has sky rocketed and the children are the ones that get hit the most. They use the bad kind of food coloring in the vitamins, cough syrup, antibioitics, juices, in fresh salmon, on our fruit to cover bruises and on and on and on!!!! I really think they need to do something about this. Well I thought I wouldn't know what to twrite but I think perhaps I have written too much.!!! People are going to think I am a nut!! LOL Well my hands and arms are hurting a lot even though I am using a lap top. I will say good nite since it is 9:37 PM and I am very tired.

God bless to anyone who takes the time to read this!!

Joni :-)